This is the first time I'm below 185 since last summer. I don't step on the scale often. It makes me mad at my weakness. Before last summer I was down to 173 which is what I weighed before I had the kids. Summer came and I allowed myself to get lazy and get fat. I got back up to 190. That was when I stopped stepping on the scale.
I've had two people tell me how good I'm looking and I can feel changes in my body so I dragged the scale out again. 182! I'm thrilled to see the scale finally going in the direction I want it to.
I think know I can lose that 10 pounds to get back to where I was before I screwed myself over in the three weeks we have before Disney World. That's my goal.
This is not a vanity blog. It's a place to keep me humble and on track. It's a place for me to someday see how far I've come and how much weight I've lost. It's a place to help me when I want that cookie or want to say fuck it all. To put it all out there flappin in the breeze...I'm 4'11" I weigh 205 pounds. For my height I should be about 100 pounds. I am obese. There. I've said it out loud. The junk in this trunk is not healthy and it's time to make a change. Understand that I love myself. I'm beautiful and sexy as hell. I want to lose this weight for health reasons. I'm overweight and I'm not healthy. One of the beautiful side effects of Ritalin is appetite suppression. Having caught sight of myself in the mirror today after a shower I noticed a change in my body. I really liked the unintentional weight loss and changes I saw and realized that it's time to get serious about taking this fat off my bones and joints. Starting now December 7th, 2008. I have 100 pounds to lose and I'm going to take two pictures of myself every day and post it here. Be kind and objective when you view these. Remember I'm a work in progress and I'm vulnerable...